Jul 04 2009
Recently
Well, there’s a pile of books on my desk. Read and read, it’s time to take a few minutes runaway. So here i am, blogging again, it’s kind of fun. This is a place i hide, a place i belong, my territory.
Let’s talk about this morning. Woke up at 8.03…shit, late for band practice? oops, no more.. apparently, this newly-accustomed freedom is really new.. still adapting myself to it. Then 11 sth, dunno wat happened, i started humming ROSS ROY, the song.. the one i believed all of us could earn ourselves a change in the pesta muzik competition. BUT, who knows, The competition was cancelled.. and another dream slashed just in front of me. Thinking of the very second mr song told me bout the nightmare, –heartbroken. Especially at that time, i still had to keep it as a secret, i was forbid(not allowed) from telling anyone bout it. That was really the ‘minimum’ point in the band. I thought we could prove ourselves in the competition.. Unfortunately….But, God din fail my hope and ambition, in the end, music rendezvous 2 bcame another miracle to me. Through my experience, i realize God will not fail us, it is us who fail ourselves. If you keep on believing, no matter what happens.. you will stand up again. God may not award you this thing this time, but the almighty definitely witnesses your effort and time will ripen your wish. Remember, when you’re negative, persevere and go through it all… you are on your way there.
kk, recently, i’m working hard as usual, of course feeling down sumtimes but it’s fine. Mum’s car was knocked by a bus driver this morning.. but she’s as always very positive.. so so so like a kid man! my mum’s a child, i’m even more adult than her. She’s gotta save lifes, so be pro, she just uttered it’s better to waste money than losing my life. And, she ate a whole lot of durians to make herself happy???? damn smelly!!! gosh, i was 2 metres away from her the whole day… joking joking. i hate the smell of durianss…zzz.. antidurian
i went to the gym to work out this evening, afraid of gaining weight after no more attending energy-consuming band practices, physically and mentally.. found a new way to sweat off. going to botanical garden tmr morning, balance up myself, sweat off!!!
recently, another family member of mine was diagnosed with cancer again.. prostate cancer. How sad? how weak life is? Cancer in my family cycle.. more and more common. how do you feel when you suddenly find out you only have 2 years to live? losing another person you love.. why is cure still not out there for cancer? why? Conclusion, health is wealth, appreciate everybody you love.. don’t hesitate to tell them you love them, before it’s too late. Before another heartless disorder takes their lifes away..
Uncle Alex, i love you! May God be with you through it all.
